To Pee or Not to Pee...Oh Who Am I Kidding.

Hmmmm. I am into week 12 and the books say the critter is about the size of a small plum, maybe a little over two inches. No butterfly wings in my stomach yet, just nausea and light cramping, yes! I will be so ecstatic when I can feel the little one and this is no longer just the flu that won't end. Though I am not showing yet my preexisting belly fat is definitely getting pushed forward, making me look bloated and pudgy, gross. I can no longer zip some of my pants up when they are straight out of the dryer, I kind of have to rubber band the button and zip them up a little more each time I pee. Speaking of peeing, I swear I went at least fifteen times yesterday. Is that normal? In the evening if I watch an hour long show I am peeing every commercial break, that can't be right can it? The saving grace is that I am staying at my mom's house in AZ with my grandma and there are no stairs to contend with for the time being. Seriously going to get a honey pot for my downstairs laundry room when I get back home (no bathroom on the main floor of my house, for those of you just joining the conversation).

 I had my first miscarriage dream. It was horrible. I dreamed that I went to go pee in the middle of the night and was a bloody mess from the waist down, I panicked and woke my husband up yelling. Freaking scary dude. In real life everything seems to be going according to plan. Nothing to report. I don't have another appointment until May 12th, the day after I get back from AZ.

I went ahead and got myself some prenatal yoga tapes, haven't tried them yet though. I have been too exhausted with getting my grandma to doctor's appointments and whatnot. But I am determined to start them soon. I am not too worried about forcing myself to do them while I am still so nauseous and tired, but that second trimester reprieve, you just watch out! I hope this sickness lets up and allows me to start enjoying this special time, not to mention getting this bod into better shape.

I fear that I am turning into my pregnant mom...I find that in the afternoons I can stave off nausea by keeping a steady influx of food going into my mouth, lol. I have been keeping an eye on it and only eating healthy snacks. I haven't craved any junk food yet (in fact processed foods are turning my stomach), but fresh fruit and salads are tasting great. My one vice is giant bowls of buttered egg noodles, mmmmmmmm.

Oh! The plane ride here was a special kind of torture. There were no air vents next to the reading lights! What in the blue blazes was that about, it's not like they weren't working, they just weren't there. And the turbulence coming out of Denver and landing in Phoenix was awful. I fully expected to vomit. The two guys sitting on either side of me were very nice and were helping fan me by the end of the flight. Oddly the next leg in the small turbo-prop plane was easy as pie. Go figure.